My deepest condolences for the lost of your dear loved one, Our God (Psalms 83:18) does care. (Jeremiah 29:11,12)

My heart goes out to your family. As time goes on and you hear a song or make Matt's favorite food just know their are other parents who have suffered the same kind of loss and feel your pain. Our Heavenly Father who knows why our Kids took that particularly way of dying have forgiven them. (Romans 6:23) I hope this helps you as it did me. (2 Corinthians 1:3,4)